Hey2...
I've updated again...
Today was damn fun...
Total madness....
Went to east coast beach with jazlyn,sharon,hasyim,syed,kohwee,n idris...
Or wat we called "The Besfren Club"..
TBC...
hahahha..
We were in the water most of the time n kept teasing jaz....
No offence yar...
Blurp!!Blurp!!
Hahaha....

Aft the swim..
Changed n sat arnd playing guitar n singing....
The food that hasyim n sharon brought was delicious..
N yar,especially syed's rice...
He asked if the white rice he bought was nice..
Wth...
I mean doesn all white rice tastes the same??..
Crazy fella...

We spent arnd 9 hrs there...
Frm 11 plus in the morning to abt 8pm..
Had so much fun n laughter..
Wished to spent more time with them again..
But the exams r coming nearer..
N nw i also need to spent time with my beloved p.o.g..

Sori guys these few daes i've not been joining u guys that much..
Im bz these daes..
With my band to handle as its juz been formed...
Probs here n there...
I'll try to make up orite...

Tomorrow is the day for our rehearsal....
N that is also at the band room..
Pathetic...
Performing for teacher's day concert..
N i'm still not sure bout msl..
Arghh!!
That Mr Pradeep is so irritating..
He keeps telling us to wait n wait...
Who do u think we are??...
Some cheapo band?..
Atleast give us some respect n let us noe ur decision even if its a no...
But guess wat,no matter wat happens..
we are still gonna perform..
We got Mr tay on our side..

So to "EnsiSvEntinE"..
All the best to our performance...
I hope we could go far...
But we still dun have a permanent bassist yet..
Coz Amad has his own commitment to dance...
So its up to Idris to confirm with ur fren huh dude...

EnsiSvEntinE....
I think its a nice name...
Thx Yan for coming up with tat kinda spelling...
Its cool..
N after this performance..
I hope we could make it happen..
To play gothic....
Yea Brader...
Gothic...
I am so reali into gothic now...
Hahhhahaha!!!

Here i am updating,sitting alone in the late night...
I cant sleep...
Yesterday was also the same...
I slept,but keep waking up lyk nearly every hour...
N the weird thing is,in that short moment of sleep,i had a dream...
A dream which i dunno what the msg is....
In my dream,i saw her...
She was talking to me but i didnt reali catch what she was saying..
I felt uneasy at the same time too...
N a few mins later..
she dissapeared...
I'm afraid it might be something bad...
Will anything happened to her??..
I wont noe n i cant do a thing...
Or will i forever loose her??...
I dunno...
Im clueless ryt nw...
Does my dream spose to mean anything?..
Or izit juz a normal dream?..
Arrghh!!


Niwaes,this is about wat happened today...
After break had no mood for bfd n was about to go home...
But i stopped n think..
wat will i do at home?...
So i decided to go for class....
Not much were present..
Ameer went for his eng oral..
Wonder how he did....
Eric went home..
N effy did not come for skul...
Even Is had an approved leave...
So not much was in da hse...
Hahahh...
But no matter wat..
we were still cracking jokes n laughing our hearts out..

Den,after skool went to meet my bandmates...
Had a jamming session..
Was fun...
It was nice all of ya....
N to yan...
I lyk ur solo minor part...
It was lyk awesome...
But fix ur solos yar....
Hahah.....

Today did nothing..
Didnt even go to my cca at simei there...
Bored all day doing nothing..
I was spose to join my frens playing soccer at 8 in the morning..
But woked up at arnd nearly 12 afternoon..
HAhaA..
N not even one of them gave me a wake up call...
Wth...
So i'm stuck at home frm morning...
I was also spose to follow my family to my grandma's hse...
But that plan was also cancelled...
I wished i had joined ameer and aizat at the library...
But since its already 6 pluz...
Juz forget it...

Yesterday,i heard p.o.g had alot of fun at the airport...
They went there juz to have dinner at delifrance..
Well effy,i noe its free but why do we have to go all the way there ryt?..
There are lots of deli outlets in spore but why airport?..
Its not that i dun wanna go but my mum did not allow me n tink that its not necessary..
N i had to agree with her..
So,sori guys...

Instead,i joined hasyim and syed...
We had fun too....
But we dun need to go all the way to the airport to have fun...
Juz went somewhere near...
To the library n den had dinner...

The best part was during our journey back home...
We were in a train with these indian group of frens making noises with music on loudly...
They were obviously trying to catch attention and act cool...
Syed,Hasyim n me were making fun of them n laughing our hearts out...
U noe how fun it is to make fun of ppl lyk this..
Trying to act cool in public....
Den,they found out that we were talking bout them n stares exchanged...
Stared n stared n finally it was our station...
We went off...
Juz before the door closed,Hasyim n me shouted RAM loudly...
(Ram is a name of an indian god)
This made them pissed n one of them stood up n showed us a middle finger...
Ahahaah...
So,once again,we excanged middle fingers....
HAhahA...
Den the train moved..
HAhaha...
I think if we had not reached our station den...
We would have created a scene in the train...
What an experience....

Cool huh??...I tink so too..Taken at East Coast Beach.....


First of all..
I'd like to say sori to ameer for not goin to ur house with the rest of p.o.g today...
Well,like i've said..
Not that i dun wanna go...
But i can't make it...
I got a jamming session with my frenz n u should noe how important it is...
Besides,i've already planned this beforehand....
So,nxt time je la...
N btw....
Why should i say sori yar?..
I've did nothing wrong wat.....
HAhahaA...


Juz now went jamming with hasyim,idris,amad n yan...
Hasyim(vocalist)
Idris(drummer)
Amad(bassist)
Yan(rhythm guitar)....

It was fun....
N besides,Jaz was also there to add in to the madness...
Actualli..
This band was formed for a reason...
N the reason is...
To perform at skool for teacher's day...
But i do believe that we could go further after that...
I hope to bring my band to enter any competition..
Either this band or the handicaps..
I dun mind...
But i reali wanna join a competition...
Battle of the bands or sumting lyk that...

Tomorrow after skool,still gotta go out with the p.o.g....
Wanna go eat at deli ryt?...
Coz we got the voucher which we 'automatically' won during our dance competition...
Hahaha...
Wat an experience that was....
Hohoho....

Great....
Now i'm being teased bout 'marigold'....
Thx alot Is,Fana and Syak....
All this bcoz of that stupid incident near the traffic...
C'mon guys....
Grow up....
Hahaha....
Nvm guys...
Today is ur day...
But wait for my day to come n i'll definitely get my revenge...
HAhahahAHah....

Btw,i would lyk to leave a few msgs to some ppl...

To Gerl...Hahaha...
Its great to hear that u've moved on...
That's good news...
Atleast the class wont be bothered by ur cries anymore...
Hhahaa...
Sori...
Did i said it wrong?...
I'm mean to say that do not cry in class anymore k?...
Hahaha....

To Ameer...
Am i glad that u came n asked me....
Bout handicaps...
Lyk i've said,i'm still in...
But juz look....
Do we have any foundation yet?..
No.....
So,how are we gonna go far if we stays like this...
Someone should do something n i'm telling u guys this...
Honestly,i dun think we can play any complete songs juz yet...
No foundation,no improvement....
Think bout it n tell me if wat i'm saying is not true...

Btw,bout my previous entry....
The one i'm refering to is not her...
Dun wori....
U should not feel guilty...
I mean,wat for??..
U did nothing wrong,so y the guilt?..
Its not her...
I'm juz refering to my childhood sweetheart....
Sweet child of mine...
Hahaha...

To Ayn...
Thx for being concern by asking me who's the gal....
Well,i dun think its a need for u to noe..
Aniwae,u cant help me...
N bout asking me to move on..
Its not ez lyk i've said...
U cant compare my world n urs...
Its totali diff...
I've told u ryt?..
Its not that i've no life or wat...
But i cant be u....
Coz u once told me that if u insist to say that u dun like him,it means u dun like him...
I'm not the same...
I cant juz possibly say that n forget her lyk how u can...
But my love for this gerl is strong..
It may be a true love...
I wont noe...
N u wont too...

Hmm...
Everything was great in class these few days...
No problems anymore..
Am i grateful that we could finally experience peace together...
Alhamdulillah....
Hope that it will stay this way forever...

And....
Wohooo....
I've formed a new band with my frens outside skool..
Its juz been formed a few days ago..
U wanna noe wats the band name?..
Well,can't tell u guys yet...
S'pose to be a secret till we r reali ready...
Hahaha...
I prefer playing in my new band coz every n single one of us already has a bond...
N the kinda songs that we guys play is roughly the same...
So,its easier to communicate n understand each other...

To 'The Handicaps'...
We are still together as a band...
Not to wori..
But its juz that i'm not reali into the songs that u guys jamm....
But i dun mind...
Thats why i've not been complaining all this while...
Its only that sometimes i feel bored jamming the same song over n over again...
This is what i felt...
Not to offend u guys or wat...
But i'm juz stating out wat i felt..
I tink we should together sit down n widen our scopes on the kinda genres...
We shuld play something more catchy...
Not the same slow song...
I think some of our classmates thinks the same too...
This is not to offend ur feelings or anything...
Juz to make some changes to our style of songs...
Hope u guys could adapt...
So that whenever we guys jamm,ppl would turn to look at the band...
And ask,wat is the name of the band playing...
N we could answer them proudly...
We are 'The Handicaps'....

I still can't forget u...
Eventhough how hard i tried...
U're juz there in my mind..
Whenever i close my eyes,i saw u everywhere...
N when my eyes are open,i'll miss u...
So,how do i forget u?...
Nothing can be done ...
N i have to face the music for loving u...
Why??
Why izit that u must go n leave me?..
Izit a sin if i loved u?..
If it is,why does love exist?...
Do u noe how i'm suffering without u?...
Plz do not make me suffer anymore....
End this misery...
I cannot take it anymore...
If i goes on like this,i may end up becoming crazy...
I juz have one request..
If u can't love me the way i've always loved u...
Juz treat me lyk the way we used to be as frens...
Dun hate me...
Juz dun hate me....

Here are some pics of my class,sd...
Called the p.o.g..
(party orang gila)..
My class is juz great..
Dun u tink so??..






During our dance performance..




This was taken during our early days of fenship..
Where everything was still wonderful...





The p.o.g



This pic is taken in the toilet at psa..Cool huh the toilet




The p.o.g again..



Fiz,Eric,Ameer,Yazid,Aizat,Is...



Handicaps..



Me..

I posted this lyrics in my entry to dedicate the song to everyone around me...
Especially my fens...
Old frens..
Current frens...
N whoever that noes i exist in this world...

Its sad to know that everyone around us especially the one we cares are changing...
Changing for the better..
N also for the worst...
Why do we have to change??..

Couldnt there be a machine that stops time n everyone from becoming different??...
If only i could build that kinda machine..
It could juz bring back memories that are lost...
The laughter that always filled the air...

I dun wan my frens to change...
Coz i juz couldnt adapt to their changes...
But whatever it is..
I have to try...
Coz no matter what i say..
No matter what i do...
Still..
Everybody's changing...

Firstly..
I would like to say that the dragon boating today was pure madness and fun...
The bus trip there was quite long and boring...
But..the event was totally paid off...
This was my first tine trying out dragon boating and i didnt knew that it was gonna be fun and interesting....
We were soaked wet from head to toe...
Due to the 'battle' that we had with the other groups n also the heavy rain....hahahah....
Totally crazy....

Next...
We went to East Coast n had a picnic there...
We had another round of swimming in the sea...
N most of us were feeling emo as we sat on the rock n enjoy the sea breeze...
Syak,Lyn,Ayn,Is...
Feeling ah korang....
Hahaha....
Went to eat after that...
Some at mac..
While some were at the foodcourt...

Then,straight home...
Most of us went our seperate ways...
Lyn n Firaj,off to esplanade....
Effy n ilah,took bus home as they were juz living nearby..
Ameer n Ayn,off to dunno where...haha...
While Syak,Fana,Is,Eric and I took the train...
The journey home would be damn boring if it wasnt for syak, fana n Is..
They were juz camwhoring and cracking jokes throughout....
Camwhores.....
HAhahaa.....

It was fun hanging out with u guys...
Hey...
Can i be one of the sluts inc member too?...
Hhahaha.....
(Btw,Sori i've no pictures for the whole event....)

Haiz...
Here i am,sitting alone in the middle of the night...
Posting an entry...
Can't sleep...
Although had to wake up early tomorrow for dragon boating...
I dunno why these few days i've not been sleeping well...
Maybe bcoz of the problems that i'm facing...
why do we have problems in life?..
I juz dun understand..
What's worst is that,the problems are created by others n yet,u r the one who needs to solve it...
juz dun get it...
problems in class..
problems with the past...
the future...
n even problems with someone u hav not met for so long...
Everywhere i turn,there seems to be a problem awaiting for me...
Problems everywhere...
Does everyone has the same problem or izit juz me??...
Arghh!!!
Help me....

Today we did nothing much in skool...
First lesson,BFD...In SR3...
Everything was going on fine until 'He' and 'She' walked in...
(Names are not published to protect identity)..
N this gerl started to cry...
N soon drama filled the room...

To the gerl who cried...
As a fren..
I adviced u to get a new life n move on..
No use waiting for him...
I reali understand how u feel coz i've been in ur shoes once....
Even if it hurts,u still need to carry urself up n move..
N i learnt my lesson..
Why are we being cold towards each other??...
We are going to be together for another one n a half year....
So why not treat everyone as a normal fren..
Push the special feelings aside...
Lets enjoy life while we still can..
We,the p.o.g dun like to see u like this...
So remember what i said n start everything fresh k?...

To 'He'...
U shuld noe whu u r rite?..hahhaa...
I reali respect u to still stand strong eventhough u r facing all this problems here n there...
Keep it up n never say die...
If u need any help at all..
Feel free to share with me....
I'll try my best n see if i could help in any way at all....

To 'She'..
Hmm...Let's see what i gotta say bout u?...
I reali pity u that u are stucked in between...
Try not to think bout it too much k...
Well,this is all i can say coz there's nothing much to say bout u...

Woohoo.....
P.O.G juz rocks....
Finally everything has ended after days of practising..
Luckily we did not screw up...hahhaa...
I wished to do it again nxt year if there's any...
Hahaha...
Its not lyk everyday i can dance n cheer....
So,three cheers for P.O.G....
Hip,Hip Hurray!!!x3

Nxt..after the cheer...
The celebration continues....
On the dancefloor...
Clubbing in the morning...
Hahaha....
P.O.G went crazy once more...
Well,the name is also Party Orang Gila pe...
But hmm...Frankly i think its quite boring..
First,the songs they play are not that nice...
N the sound system sux...
The lighting is also not good...
N addition to the misery,i have no partner to dance with...
Hahaha...
So,joget la ramai2 btwn guys n guys....
Omg....
Argh.....
What a nightmare...

Overall,i would lyk to wish everyone Happy National Day...

Haha...Finally...
I've updated guys....
My com is ok now...
Hope it won't face any more problems in the future....

First things first...
Tuesday is national day celebration....
N my class had to cheer...
But its more to dancing i guess...
Hahaha...
Juz hope we will win...

Next..
Its lucky for me coz i've finally had a guitar tutor to teach me...
That is also for free...
How lucky am i..
He's my fren...
A metal guitarist which is very good and humble...
Hope that i'll be able to play like him in the future...
Its been my dream to become a good guitarist...
Pray for me k....
Hahaha...

Hmm..
Teacher's day is also juz around the corner...
N i've decided to perform at my sec sch...
That is marsiling sec...
But the teacher in charge says there will be a lot of other band performances too...
Haiz...
Juz hope he could slot us in...

So,thats all for my entry today...
Hahahaha....
Take Care everyone .....